2nd quarter down two more to go!

Quarter 2.  It was really difficult, because of the problem I was involved in.  I'm on the verge of getting out of it, as long as I don't screw anything else up.  Well this quarter we help some events.  Like the evacuation, ISA, and coming up winter fair which I'm very lucky to be working.  I didn't get to work ISA because of something stupid I asked about the problem.  This quarter I learned a lot, mostly from the problem.  Now I know the true meaning of stress, loss of trust, and many more.  I lost my priviledges as a solution to the problem, which was NOT the right one to go with.  It was a big mistake and I wish I could go back in time and change that moment.  To come up with a better solution instead of losing something that I actually needed.  But at least I'm earning them back.  Hopefully I show Mr.Ing I improved and learned my lesson and get off that front table.  That feeling that the rest of the class doesn't need me every time I turn around isn't very good.  That's my motivation.  I really don't like that feeling and want to show Mr.Ing that I learned my lessons.  This has been going on for a while and I'm hoping that this Friday, winter fair, I show Mr.Ing something that would get me off that front table.  He gave me a chance to work candy grams and winter fair.  I'm so thankful.  I also got my vest back.  I sort of think that I'm slowly getting out of this problem.  I won't mess anything else up.  I don't even mind that I can't walk around during winter fair.  I'm just lucky enough to work.  I really do hope that this Friday will change everything and get me out of this problem I'm in.  That hole I dug for myself, I'm getting out of it.  This quarter was definitely different from last quarter and harder.  I don't know if I'm ready for 3rd quarter honestly.  If I'm still in the problem by 3rd quarter, I'm really screwed.

The main thing that happened to me in 2nd quarter which was a real low light of the quarter is when I got into the problem.  What started this whole thing is when I first cheated on AR which was a dumb idea.  This lead me to not working anything.  My regular jobs and ISA.  I asked Mr.Ing for a second chance.  He gave me one which was to work ISA in the morning, recess, and advisory.  I was stupid enough to ask him if I'm getting credit.  That ruined my chances of everything.  That's when the problem lead on to the next week.  I tried some solutions.  From breakfast with Mr.Ing, to writing on post its,  blogs, and finally talking to him.  Nothing really helped but it gave me hints.  The problem had just went on for weeks and finally we had a meeting.  This is where I made the dumbest choice every and decided to lose my priviledges and a solution.  This was by far the worst choice I made because it ruined everything.  I know I could have thought of something better then this.  I lost my chair, cubby, desk, mostly everything.  I was crushed.  I felt so useless coming into A101, because all I did was exist in that class.  I talked to Mr.Ing and that definitely made a change.  I'm so glad I talked to him.  Because a couple days after I talked to him I got my vest back.  I was happy that I could finally work again and do something besides exist.  Til this day I can still work.  So that went on for a while.  But what messed up everything is when I followed Haley to go to the library and work.  But that changed, because I'm leading myself out of the problem.  Then I had to find a way to make up my missing jobs.  That didn't go very well.  But I helped special needs for one class period, which was period 2.  But that's the only time I had to go out and find my own way to make up jobs.  Because I was lucky enough for Mr.Ing to give me a chance to work candy grams to make up my jobs.  I didn't have to go out and find my own way to make up my jobs.  I was the only one who showed up to work from the front table, and I'm proud that I did.  I am also still working candy grams.  A couple days after I figure out the work schedule for winter fair.  Mr.Ing gave the three of us a chance to work music for winter fair.  But that changed because now I'm working alone for 75 minutes of music for winter fair.  But that's okay, because I'm just lucky enough to be working!  I took the chance he gave me, and I'm not losing another opportunity like I did with ISA.  I asked a dumb question which ruined my chances of getting out of the problem.  But not this time, I won't mess up.  These were definitely the highlights, and yet low lights of 2nd quarter.

The lessons I learned from 2nd quarter.  I learned a lot.  For one is that trust is so easy to lose, yet so hard to gain back.  So be careful with it.  Don't play with it because it's not a toy.  Mr.Ing's trust is hard to gain back and so easy to lose.  Trust is very important in leadership.  So don't mess with it.  Obviously I learned not to cheat.  It was a really dumb choice of me to cheat in the first place.  I learned that even a couple of words could make a big difference, and a question too.  So be careful of what you say.  Also to be careful of the solutions you think of.  Don't just think of a random one.  Be smart about it because it could either have a positive or negative affect.  My solution had a negative affect, which isn't good.  To NOT be a follower.  It's called leadership not followship.  Take actions for yourself, and don't wait for someone else to do something for you.  I got myself into this problem, and I could get myself out of it.  When your given a chance to do something, take it!  Don't say something that would blow it away.  You have a great opportunity in your hands.  Don't just throw it away.  Take it!  Don't ruin it.  Be lucky with what you have, because it's better then nothing.  Our choices affect everyone.  Whatever you do has an affect.  Like all of my choices affected my period.  It wasn't a good thing.  These are the lessons I learned in 2nd quarter.  I think I might be leaving some out, but these are the main ones I learned and are stuck in my head.